Well I think it has been darn near a year, I kept telling myself get started again, start writing, start screaming, start running, just freaking start.   I am not really sure what the hell is going on in my head?  It doesn't help that I am surrounded by CRAZY, it is any wonder that I am as sane and put together as I am.  Although; I have read some of my past blogs and thought. Perhaps sane is not the best choice of words, of course that is what makes me drop dead fabulous.

So I started my journey with a realization, then a pitfall, than an epiphany. Then reality set in.  So I thought I would look up the 12 step program from AA and see where my success has fallen so that I can proceed positively forward.  Let me just say after reading the 12 steps, I have to wonder how any one succeeds. No offense but it sounded like a load of crap.  (I guess this means I am still at step one.)   Don't get me wrong I believe in GOD, and I have faith; but I also believe you make the choices in your life; you make your own destiny.  That opportunity doesn't come knocking on your door unless you are in a movie or a book.  You have to go find it and grab it. 

Even though i think i have made these positive choices in my life now, I could kick myself for not choosing sooner.  That had always been my mantra, so what the hell happened. How did I let myself fall apart? 

KICKING...KICKING...NOW SCREAMING!

Oh well time to move on so I have decide to create my own 12 steps to MY ASS.  I have already taken the first step 1) facing the truth.  2) Deciding to change 3) reviewing the past

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12) Walk.....

Perhaps it needs some work…  I think I will start with Sensa.  It should be in the mail in a few days.  (I really need to stop grabbing a crutch but hey it is a starting point!)