Well I think it has been darn near a year, I kept telling myself get started again, start writing, start screaming, start running, just freaking start. I am not really sure what the hell is going on in my head? It doesn't help that I am surrounded by CRAZY, it is any wonder that I am as sane and put together as I am. Although; I have read some of my past blogs and thought. Perhaps sane is not the best choice of words, of course that is what makes me drop dead fabulous.
So I started my journey with a realization, then a pitfall, than an epiphany. Then reality set in. So I thought I would look up the 12 step program from AA and see where my success has fallen so that I can proceed positively forward. Let me just say after reading the 12 steps, I have to wonder how any one succeeds. No offense but it sounded like a load of crap. (I guess this means I am still at step one.) Don't get me wrong I believe in GOD, and I have faith; but I also believe you make the choices in your life; you make your own destiny. That opportunity doesn't come knocking on your door unless you are in a movie or a book. You have to go find it and grab it.
Even though i think i have made these positive choices in my life now, I could kick myself for not choosing sooner. That had always been my mantra, so what the hell happened. How did I let myself fall apart?
Oh well time to move on so I have decide to create my own 12 steps to MY ASS. I have already taken the first step 1) facing the truth. 2) Deciding to change 3) reviewing the past
Perhaps it needs some work… I think I will start with Sensa. It should be in the mail in a few days. (I really need to stop grabbing a crutch but hey it is a starting point!)